Because life’s too short to even care at all.
Today I woke up to humming this song because yet again, and as it always has recurred in this blog– LIFE SUCKS. And day by day, my long list of reasons why life sucks has gone longer. And every time I start to spiral downwards and have tantrums, in the form of self-destructive and chaotic mental breakdown, this song and two others are on the top of my playlist. At least for now, I know that I am currently in a downward spiral for a couple of weeks already that I have been accustomed to it, and not getting tantrums anymore.
I have always seen myself play this song in loop while I commit suicide long before Glee made it happen. It’s just that.. every time I hear this song play, I get that morbid feel that it is just sickening and horrible and ugh. At least that is how I made of it since I heard the song years years ago. Until they came along– the ones with radiant auras.
Because if you listen to the song carefully, you would know that the guy is actually hopeful that the cough syrup will make things in his life better. That the cough syrup will magically cure life’s bitterness. That eventually he’ll be okay.
So I’m gonna be taking the same cough syrup because I, also am tired of how life works, and how life should be better than I thought it would be. It will take time. I have gone into a deeper darker place, and I’ll be waiting for my cough syrup to come down.
And so I run now to the things they said could restore me, restore life the way it should be. I’m waiting for this cough syrup to come down.
One more spoon of cough syrup now.
I’m just the curbside prophet, and I’m waiting for this cough syrup to come down.
Thank you friends, dearly for the symbolic gift you gave me!